July 19, 2017

Epistle To My Future

postscript of Epistle To A Past


mahal,
i hope you’re doing well when this letter reaches you.
please do not prolong our absence cause it makes everything hard for me.
i hope when we meet, cupid would be there so you can easily recognize and accept the fact that we are the one that’s meant to be.
truth is, i don’t have all the time in the world hence i wouldn’t be wasting anytime without you by my side.
i will love you with all my heart and i will take care of you.
i will do everything i can to make you happy.
i may be lacking some qualities you’re wanting for, but i’ll make sure you’ll always be proud of me.
i will be the strong legs that will support and protect your plans and goals whether i’m part of it or otherwise… 

January 6, 2017

Mala Amore

i thought you were exactly the same person i used to love back in the days.
i probably confused the line between the nostalgia of loving you and cavity of missing you.
unsure and insecure i take pleasure in the middle of the two.
i neglect to cavil and regret on things which i might have done or otherwise.

so then i try to rescue the burning house.
endure the pain of a dying hot romance.
but things have slowly taking form.
while i believe that it does not hurt, for a moment in my life i asked the taste of death.
i felt torture within the crevices of my heart.

but we are prepared for this.
and we knew we would come to this.
the only thing that keeps you holding onto me is fear.
fear that one day when i stop loving you, i will finally realize how terrible person you are.
exact words you said to me.

be that as it may i still have a space for two.
one reserved for me and the other one for you.
instead of letting strangers rent, i am willing to let you in anytime you wanted to.


christiansantamaria

January 5, 2017  Paco Manila