March 8, 2012

babae po sila

kilala mo siya...
pantasya mo ang vital stats niya...
ang female crush mo nung highschool o nung college...
ang girlfriend mo...
ang gal bestfriend mo...
ang sis mo, o ang mudra mo...
siya yun...sila yun...
minsan masungit, moody, unreasonable, maarte...
ganun pa man, sa iba't-ibang paraan, mahalaga ang papel na ginampanan nila at patuloy na ginagampanan sa buhay naten at pati na rin sa kasaysayan...


maligayang pagbati sa mga ating mga kababaihan!
sa mga babaeng babae,
babaeng mukang lalake,
babaeng maton,
babaeng bakla,
babaeng gustong maging lalake,
binabae at pusong babae,
at lahat ng sangkababaihan!
cheers! :D




HAPPY WOMEN'S DAY !!!




[christiansantamaria]


March 08, 2012 hospital

March 5, 2012

living and loving in defiance

there's nothing wrong believing in fantasies and fairy tales. i for one dreamed that one way or another, could experience the "they lived happily ever after..."
but making it as a pattern on how our relationship should be is a different story.
this world can be harsh as to how reality can painfully bites.
i don't want to be a kill joy that portrays the antagonist here.
am just stating facts, maybe not in general, but still facts.



gay relationship doesn't always ends up in happy ending.
sooner or later, there's an inevitable force of nature that eventually ends it up.
just as how all the universe conspired in establishing what you have, they will eventually connive in breaking it no matter how dying are you saving it...

alpha and omega...
everything has an end, good or bad will soon perished.
planning goals and setting aspirations can keep the fire burning.
however, inasmuch as i want to believe that eternity can possibly be achieved in this kind of relationship, i do not want myself to be blinded by such high hopes.

yes, i may not be hopeless romantic lover. but then again, romanticism alone is no good as realism.
be emotionally romantic and carry a realistic perspective --- that's how i live with it.
i enjoy the interval between the two end-points. i live one day at a time, saving every moments that i have for i never know if tomorrow may not be mine.
when separation comes, i can face it with a less severe wound and frustration.
look back of all the good things that happened, charge to experience and move on with less, or no regrets at all.
at the end of the day, this life isn't for complaint...it's for satisfaction.


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"you reminded me of that first love 9 years ago....
the last time i saw a man cry in front of me in a tête-à-tête.
i cannot forget that first friday night when i saw you cry.
when at the very least, i saw some honesty from you.
when i saw your weakest point, a soft-spot not everyone can see.
when you showed yourself, less bare and more than naked..."




[christiansantamaria]




March 4, 2012 residence

set fire to the rain

oo alam ko matagal na 'to, ok?? haha
at hindi rin ako broken! hehehe
LSS lang ako at LAS na din (late appreciation syndrome).
wala naman siya talaga siyang significance sa buhay ko ngayon.
gusto ko lang talaga siyang kantahin...ng paulit-ulit-ulit hanggang magsawa na ko....




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i let it fall, my heart,
and as it fell you rose to claim it
it was dark and i was over
until you kissed my lips and you saved me

my hands, they're strong
but my knees were far too weak
to stand in your arms
without falling to your feet

but there's a side to you
that i never knew, never knew.
all the things you'd say
they were never true, never true,
and the games you play
you would always win, always win.

[chorus]
but i set fire to the rain,
watched it pour as i touched your face,
well, it burned while i cried
'cause i heard it screaming out your name, your name!

when i lay with you
i could stay there
close my eyes
feel you here forever
you and me together
nothing is better

'cause there's a side to you
that i never knew, never knew,
all the things you'd say,
they were never true, never true,
and the games you play
you would always win, always win.

[chorus]
but i set fire to the rain,
watched it pour as i touched your face,
well, it burned while i cried
'cause i heard it screaming out your name, your name!

i set fire to the rain
and i threw us into the flames
where it felt something die
'cause i knew that that was the last time, the last time!

sometimes i wake up by the door,
that heart you caught must be waiting for you
even now when we're already over
i can't help myself from looking for you.

[chorus]
i set fire to the rain,
watched it pour as i touched your face,
well, it burned while i cried
'cause i heard it screaming out your name, your name

i set fire to the rain,
and i threw us into the flames
where it felt something die
'cause i knew that that was the last time, the last time, oh, ohhhh!

oh noooo
let it burn
oh oh ohhhh
let it burn
oh oh ohhhh
let it burn
oh oh ohhhh



[christiansantamaria]


March 05, 2012 hospital